Feeling much better and ready to rock
Posted: Thu Aug 29, 2024 11:58 am
Hi everyone,
After more than two years of battling burn-out and depression, I feel confident to say that I am finally feeling much better. Early July I still had some really bad days, but as the saying goes, the darkest hour comes right before daybreak, and I feel that I'm now finally there. Around that time, I also managed to finally get rid of some of the most burdensome responsibilities in my job, giving me the mental space to finally focus on my passions again.
And my biggest passion is without a doubt PkHonor, as it has been for the past (almost) 15 years.
The most important thing for me right now is making sure I can hold on to my current mental state and to be mindful not to slip back into the old habits that got me into my troubled mental state in the first place (mostly not being able to say no to anyone and not coming up for myself or what I want). However, thanks to the help of professionals, I now have a much better insight in who I am and what my limitations are. I can finally put some things in perspective and be more understanding of myself, who I am and what I am (or am not) comfortable with and that it's okay that some things just aren't easy for me as it is for most others. I shouldn't pressure myself into being what I think people expect of me and not put myself into positions where I don't want to be. Certain things will always remain stressful or uneasy for me, but as long as I am generally feeling mentally fine as I am feeling now, then at least I'll be able to cope with it.
Now, I have several things I'd love to work on. First of all, I want to help Brant finish the RuneLite client that he has spent so much time and effort on. He's done an amazing job, and there are just a few things left to do before we can release it. There will definitely still be some bugs and glitches to work out after the release, but hopefully nothing too major.
After that, there's quite a list of major things I'd love to add. First of all, there's the Tombs of Amascut (ToA) that Raj has already done a great job on. Then there's also group ironman, adding (and/or reworking) endgame content and a major wilderness overhaul. All of it will take time, but we'll get there. I can't give any estimates yet, I can only promise that, unless something catastrophic would happen, they will come to the server one way or another. What things we'll work on first has not yet been decided and will depend on a combination of what we believe the community wants and what we (the developers) feel comfortable with to work on.
After more than two years of battling burn-out and depression, I feel confident to say that I am finally feeling much better. Early July I still had some really bad days, but as the saying goes, the darkest hour comes right before daybreak, and I feel that I'm now finally there. Around that time, I also managed to finally get rid of some of the most burdensome responsibilities in my job, giving me the mental space to finally focus on my passions again.
And my biggest passion is without a doubt PkHonor, as it has been for the past (almost) 15 years.
The most important thing for me right now is making sure I can hold on to my current mental state and to be mindful not to slip back into the old habits that got me into my troubled mental state in the first place (mostly not being able to say no to anyone and not coming up for myself or what I want). However, thanks to the help of professionals, I now have a much better insight in who I am and what my limitations are. I can finally put some things in perspective and be more understanding of myself, who I am and what I am (or am not) comfortable with and that it's okay that some things just aren't easy for me as it is for most others. I shouldn't pressure myself into being what I think people expect of me and not put myself into positions where I don't want to be. Certain things will always remain stressful or uneasy for me, but as long as I am generally feeling mentally fine as I am feeling now, then at least I'll be able to cope with it.
Now, I have several things I'd love to work on. First of all, I want to help Brant finish the RuneLite client that he has spent so much time and effort on. He's done an amazing job, and there are just a few things left to do before we can release it. There will definitely still be some bugs and glitches to work out after the release, but hopefully nothing too major.
After that, there's quite a list of major things I'd love to add. First of all, there's the Tombs of Amascut (ToA) that Raj has already done a great job on. Then there's also group ironman, adding (and/or reworking) endgame content and a major wilderness overhaul. All of it will take time, but we'll get there. I can't give any estimates yet, I can only promise that, unless something catastrophic would happen, they will come to the server one way or another. What things we'll work on first has not yet been decided and will depend on a combination of what we believe the community wants and what we (the developers) feel comfortable with to work on.
